Closing for 2009

2009.. Finally its ending!
Its been a very very remarkable year for me..
I've got most of the things i wished for.
1# A pink camera(from my loved ones)
2# A diploma (encouraged from my loved one too)
3#Braces on the way(from dentist lollll)
4#Lessons for violin( omg)
5# Lot more courage gained

Well, without SL, i wouldnt have dared to try things out. I would still be hiding in my cave, waiting for food to crawl in. I know its kinda late to do all these things at the age of 26 but no choice, whats lost is already lost. I wouldn't agree im successful now, but its really a big step for me. And for violin, i truely , deeply regretted why i started out so late.. It seems time is running out for me.. Sigh
Wasting 3 years in pubs and 2 yrs in retail is really enough for me. I do not ever wana waste any more time, no more!

I'v depended on alot of people for the past, now 2010 is the time i should really get independant/dependant(which one?lolll) I really hope i could get that job , waiting for interview.. Even though my parents greatly objects, but i do not care. Life is about sacrifices and big changes, i know for sure if i proceed lil by lil, i'll be still lazy to persevere.

And if i got that job(hopefully) i most probably will go for full time deg. Im not too sure if the timing allows.. But part time deg is definitely out. Because a night shift job is impossible to go for evening deg.. So if i take a full time deg, can i cope? I really have no idea! Will i be so tired everyday? Can i pass it?

I need lotsa encouragement from the people around me.. Uncertainties are scary i know. But if u dont try it, you'll never know? Every single second i keep thinking about this 2 things im gonna pursue, im feeling so excited and afraid.. But this keeps me feeling, IM ALIVE! Not dead..

Last but not least, i wana muackz everyone ard me for the support in this 2009.. Thanks..
2010, Pls bless me bless me bless me.. AMEN..